What Medication??

so I totally forgot to take my mess for about 3 days!

I’m in New York doing an internship and there was just a slip of my mind. No it doesn’t have anything to do with not wanting to take it anymore, I seriously forgot.

I couldn’t sleep, I was feeling good but tired, a little little edgy, and it was because I totally forgot.

New York is great! I’m running around like a New Yorker, doing shows, learning, feeling like I’m actually helping out my boss, so I feel good!! She is super great but a little stand off ish. I think that just may be her way of dealing with assistants, but I’m trying to change that.

Anyways I got a great You’re Just Like Me coming next week and hopefully more updates on the blog.

But enough about me..

Hey YOU! You doing okay??

Attract

Quarterflash – Harden my Heart

I’m going to Harden my Heart

because this mental illness is making me feel really vulnerable and stupid.

I have been jamming to this song because it sums up exactly how I’m feeling..

….and you ask yourself: “how did I get here??

Writing is so hard when your feeling good. Nothing comes to you as freely as it did. Now, i’m looking at a keyboard
thinking of thing to write about.

Has my mental illness journey finally stop? I mean they do say, “all good things come to an end”, but I have
something that is helping my mood and stabling my life as much as it can. Shouldn’t I have more information and Ideas to venture??

They never tell you what happens after the storm.

So now, I’m sitting here, typing an excuse of why I don’t have an elaborate, cool, funny entry to give and asking myself:

What Now?

and did I ever have elaborate, cool, funny entries? I mean…

Wishing you a better holiday than me!

There have been so many times when I sat down to write and I deleted everything and left. I don’t know what’s going on with me lately, but I have not wanted to do anything I use to do.

This doesn’t mean I am giving up on my blog, it just mean that I have to find something in my life that I simply love doing – other than writing.

I feel like I am lacking a lot and I’m trying to make up for it by doing different things. My mood is still killing most of what I am doing, but I am making simple changes to my life that hopefully will help my mental illness.

I hope everyone is okay this holiday season and I hope your not too down. Please take care of yourselves!

Featured Post on Goodtherapy.org !!

So I wrote an article for GOODTHERAPY.ORG, a site that will help you find a doctor, learn about mental illness, and just a really cool community for advice and sounding out about mental illness…

http://www.goodtherapy.org/blog/stigma-come-at-me-if-you-can-112314

I’m really excited about it because I reveal who I am outside of OHTEMP, which was totally scary, but I think I’m really starting to be comfortable being me, and not an alias.

I have been feeling REALLY REALLY bad lately and this has made me feel better. I am trying to find the strength to write and be happy, but like everything, I have to let it run its course….

Please know that I am trying everyday to change for the better and to help people like myself understand just what the hell is going on inside. Thank you for being patience with me and for being such a wonderful awesome help!

Love,

Tempus  …my real name.

Bipolarunemployedlost.com is here!!

Bipolar, Unemployed & Lost can now be found on the web by:

http://www.bipolarunemployedlost.com

YAY!!

Please bookmark us and see you there!

Gone, but NOT forgotten!

Hello BP world. I’m back…and IM MARRIED!

YAY to me! YAY to such a world wind of events that have stopped me from blogging, but now I’m back and better than ever. I have so much to catch you up on, and I hope you have some stuff for me.

First thing is first… MY BIPOLAR HAS DISAPPEARED!!

NO, seriously. I haven’t had an episode, a craving, a low moment, a high moment… I haven’t had anything to worry about! Isn’t that super? Don’t you just want me to rub you so you can get this NO BIPOLAR thing too?! Well, sadly, it doesn’t work like that, does it? It will pop its ugly head right back into my life, and I am not excited about it.

Good news is, I will have health insurance by the end of Oct, and I WILL be getting myself some help. I also have stop smoking, I started swimming for exercise, and I’ve started lying to myself. I’m lying because I’m telling myself that the worst is over… but its not.

I’m not ready to deal with my BP again, but i’m excited to get it under control and monitored.

ENOUGH ABOUT ME!! YOU YOU YOU! How are you?