Internship over and I’m okay!

I worked so hard that my boss was impressed with me and even gave me a gift basket at the end with really good goodies. 

I rocked it. And I took my medicine the whole time.

I could see that the city was getting to me. Mentally and psychically. I was getting irritated and just down the right not in a good mood the last few days. I don’t like feeling like that so I know it’s my environment that helps as well.

I will be going back in February and I’m really excited to be asked to. I’ll just make sure to know how to take care of myself and to make sure to take my medicine the whole time.

I’m back!!!

What Medication??

so I totally forgot to take my mess for about 3 days!

I’m in New York doing an internship and there was just a slip of my mind. No it doesn’t have anything to do with not wanting to take it anymore, I seriously forgot.

I couldn’t sleep, I was feeling good but tired, a little little edgy, and it was because I totally forgot.

New York is great! I’m running around like a New Yorker, doing shows, learning, feeling like I’m actually helping out my boss, so I feel good!! She is super great but a little stand off ish. I think that just may be her way of dealing with assistants, but I’m trying to change that.

Anyways I got a great You’re Just Like Me coming next week and hopefully more updates on the blog.

But enough about me..

Hey YOU! You doing okay??

Med Down! Med Down!

I’ve decided to stop my medication. My husband doesn’t think I should. I am on the edge of the line with it. I’m feeling fine, holding down a job and in internship coming up. I think the only thing it helps me with is going to sleep, which i knock out in 10 mins now instead of 100 mins.

I’m feeling okay…

but why do I have the feeling like that’s the glue.

I don’t want everything that I’m doing to be based on medication I take for a disease I can’t help. I have grown, not the meds.

Argh! I don’t know what I need to do, but I may be already leaning to a side..

The Dark Knight Rises

so I got the opportunity I wanted and now I’m just waiting for it to happen.
Mentally,?I’m a clutter fuck. I can’t really put things together in my mind because of the great opportunity and me worrying about life in general , but I HOPE HOPE my mind can get it together.

I am also smoking ….so you know how that goes.

My medicine has been working still….I guess. I can’t tell anymore if I’m just numb to my brain or it’s working. I need to do a little more looking into this. Hell! If Minot crying and my mind isn’t running I should be okay right??!!

I hope all of you are okay! The BipolarBlogger Network reminded me that I need to blog more because it not only helps me but other as all. I can’t forgot my awesome blog as awesome bloggers that I love.

Please bear with me! I am having a crazy life right now and never meant to go anywhere!

Gone dark

I’ve gone dark.

I haven’t written anything in a while and well…that’s a good thing.

I told you I was going to school now and making things happen in my life instead of waiting.

I miss writing and hopefully will get back to it soon. I’m just getting some things under my belt :)

Starting A Dream

Starting nail school tonight and I am so excited! I’m  excited to finally be doing something that I am excited to do, and something for myself.

You don’t know this about me, but I love nails! I love everything about it and I have been thinking about getting my license for a long time. Now I finally am doing it and I feel really happy about it.

I’ve finally found something that I love and hopefully will love me back.

Just a good day :)

…and I never have those!