So I recently decided to make healthy changes for my body. I am eating right.

I didn’t sat working out… Oh no…I’m not that committed yet…(haha)

But I am watching what I eat. Keeping a food journal, smaller portions, you know. All though recently I was reading DIETING FOR DUMMIES and in one of the passages they talk about carbs being comfort food, but then they said something that kind of hit home…

“But pasta isn’t Prozac”

UGH!!!!! WHY??!?
Why do I feel so UGH about that passage? Is it because I’M ON PROZAC? I have always been a semi-sensitive person but really…a book that has nothing to do with mental illness…

I just am really feeling injustice when people talk about mental health or meds or weight or anything insulting or vague. I feel like I’m the cheerleader for our minds and bodies, but I have yet to come out with who I am or tell people that I have a mental illness.

Does that make me a poser??

If I were a poser wouldn’t Batman and other superheroes be? They are fighting bad guys in costumes, I’m behind a computer screen…

Everything will be fine

I keep telling myself that.

Not everything happens on my own time and that’s it. Finding a job has been a letdown enough. I can’t keep having this blah attitude.

Its happy or die.
Laugh or drown
Relax or fail

I’ve started working out alot to keep my mind in check. I have started smoking and drinking again, which isn’t good for me, but its only social times. I’m not drinking by myself…yet.

There is a million things right now I can be sad about, but I will not let my mind get this way. I will be strong for myself.

For all of us.