2:06am

What are YOOUU doing up?

Me? Once I wake up for my son, I’m up for 2 hours. My mind is running about everything that has ever happened to me.

😞

Although I’ve always been a night owl. Nighttime is peaceful and quiet, but my life and priorities have changed. I’m the same mentally illed lady just world shift.

Any else trying to hold on to bad habits but know your lifestyle has changed. Congrats! I’m you…only more depressed.

2:16a

so

i told my son tonight that i wont be like my mother. i wont tell him im going to stop and not stop. drug aren’t good for me. not good for my son…

no hard drugs – pleeaassseee but marijuana. im still using this drug mindlessly becsuse i think i need it. i dont need it anymore. i dont need my mind to float i need it to stay and look at my son.

look at my life.

i have been feeling really powerless lately. been crying and laughing really weirdly.

how did i end up exactly at the same spot i was?

because i never really did shit.

 

hello again. my name is OHTEMP, and this is Bipolar, Employed & STILL LOST.

CBT Workbook

I have been experiencing bipolar disorder very very much lately. I know I have, I’ve been tracking my moods for a month and I am in the middle of another wave. So I have been preparing for it and looking up therapy I can do on my own.

I printed out the NHS Foundation Trust’s CBT Skills Workbook and have been working through it.

Click to access cbt-workshop-booklet_web.pdf

CBT is a form of therapy that works on your thoughts and how they effect your feelings which affects your life. Learn more about CBT from NAMI’s site

http://www.nami.org/Content/NavigationMenu/Inform_Yourself/About_Mental_Illness/About_Treatments_and_Supports/Cognitive_Behavioral_Therapy1.htm

It’s okay and I like it. I hope it helps me. I hope it helps you.

I Me Mine – The Beatles

This song really makes me think about I, Me, and… well.. MINE.

Isn’t that what everyone thinks about all the time? I think if you have a mental illness you think about yourself way more than others. This is because you always have to be “ahead of the game” when it comes to your illness. That is why they tell you to go help others or volunteer to get your mind off you… your mind.

Damn, all through the day… I me mine, I me mine, I me mine

If Miley Cyrus can have a “movement”…

shouldn’t something like MENTAL HEALTH have a WORLDWIDE movement??? I’m getting tired of Miley Cyrus, and government shutdowns (well.. the government shutdown is kind of important…), and other ridiculous things taking over the spotlight in the news and minds of the world!

END WORLD CREULTY!

END WORLD HUNGER!!

END WORLD HATE!!!

…and END MENTAL HEALTH STIGMA!!!!

WHO’S WITH ME?!!?!?!?!

..anyone…

“I hate to work”, says the Bipolar mind

I feel like the reason I am so anti about working is my mind.

I dread going to work. Every day. Every time i think about going to do work for someone or something other than myself. I get angry, and don’t want to do it.

I really think this is a bipolar trait.

Shit, it doesn’t matter if its the best job on earth, im going to dread going to it, and spend my precious 6 to 8 hours.

Is this normal for you too? I don’t want to have these feelings anymore.

((side note: as I am typing this, my job called me in early, and I said yes. ))

Does this mean I’m a really lazy person, or that I don’t like to do the things I don’t like to do.

I wish I was born rich or royal.. With a normal brain.