Internship over and I’m okay!

I worked so hard that my boss was impressed with me and even gave me a gift basket at the end with really good goodies. 

I rocked it. And I took my medicine the whole time.

I could see that the city was getting to me. Mentally and psychically. I was getting irritated and just down the right not in a good mood the last few days. I don’t like feeling like that so I know it’s my environment that helps as well.

I will be going back in February and I’m really excited to be asked to. I’ll just make sure to know how to take care of myself and to make sure to take my medicine the whole time.

I’m back!!!

….and you ask yourself: “how did I get here??

Writing is so hard when your feeling good. Nothing comes to you as freely as it did. Now, i’m looking at a keyboard
thinking of thing to write about.

Has my mental illness journey finally stop? I mean they do say, “all good things come to an end”, but I have
something that is helping my mood and stabling my life as much as it can. Shouldn’t I have more information and Ideas to venture??

They never tell you what happens after the storm.

So now, I’m sitting here, typing an excuse of why I don’t have an elaborate, cool, funny entry to give and asking myself:

What Now?

and did I ever have elaborate, cool, funny entries? I mean…

Disconnected DoDo

I’m feeling really disconnected from everything I’m doing and feeling. Dull.

I don’t really want to engaged with anything at the moment. May was super busy for and it looks like June is looking the same but still something is lacking its luster.

Even my blog is feeling dry and withered.

Can it be this medication I’m on? Did my illness at least make my days feel different because you never knew when I was going to be what I was going to be, whenever I was going to be it.  

Got that?

I just want to feel empowered, but that might be within and I’m just going to have to find it.

You’re Just Like Me: Sarah

So, you have a Mental Illness?…Which One?

I have bipolar disorder, i was diagnosed when i was 18 after 2 years on anti-depressants and lots of blood, sweat and tears later. I had finished high school and when my parents realized it wasn’t ‘just the stress from school’ decided to listen to me. It was a battle to say the least, various doctors and visits to rehabs with creepy psychiatrists that with one look could make your skin crawl.

 

How do you cope/relax from your mental illness?

Coping and relaxing are in no way easy, but I’ve found that i’m best when i have a routine and keep busy. Boxing has proven to be the favorite form of therapy!!!

 

What are 3 words that you would describe how your illness makes you feel?

Three words that being bipolar makes me feel would be empty, frustrated and alone.

 

If you could talk to world leaders about mental illness, what would be the one thing you discuss?

If i was to talk to world leaders about mental illness, it would be on education- or rather the failings of it. That’s where the stigma and fear begins. Children are never educated on their feelings, therefore we need to implement forms of education that recognition, accept and most importantly don’t desensitize a generation because of the way knowledge is presented.

 

What is some advice you would give someone who is fighting mental illness?

To people with mental illnesses, there is always hope even if it comes from something small, hope is always there. Surround yourself with people who don’t make you feel invalid and will pick up a call from you in tears at 3am.

 

How can we keep in touch with you? (blog, Facebook, Twitter)

 

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When MUSIC ATTACKS!

This isn’t a bash Beyoncé post, because I love Beyoncé, but this is a post that is going to sound pretty weird…

I hate this song because I am NOT FLAWLESS. AT ALL.

I woke up like this:

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Songs nowadays make you want to be this AWESOME I DON’T NEED NO ONE NOTHING IS EVER WRONG person, but the truth this…that is not the truth. I wake up hating life, hating my situation, looking horrible, but the songs right now aren’t on my level. How is this helping out our world when all anyone can think of is materialistic things?

Am I going about this the wrong way? Should I use these songs are ANTHEMS? How do you when you can’t relate..

One song I HATED was Pharrell’s Happy because I was never happy, and the damn song was everywhere!!

Are there any songs that you hate because they make you feel blah? Are there any that are your anthems?