family issues

Right now I feel like I am going to explode.

I hate my family so much right now. First its my mom calling me saying that she is going to take me to court, then its my cousin who is mad at me for telling her boyfriend why she went to jail.

If its not one thing, its another.

Tomorrow I will be out of town for about 5 days, and I hope this time I will use to relax and not stress about anything. I hope to come back refreshed.

I just don’t understand why these last two weeks have been a living hell for me – from other people. I will say that what goes around, comes around, and I am finally getting what coming to me. I haven’t been the best person in the last year and I knew that all good things don’t last…although it seems like all bad things stay forever.

I hope this trail of bad luck isn’t keeping up with me. I need it to go away, so I can finally do stuff for me. To help me take off and land. To be free of this place, and the people around me. I want to start off fresh..

but even freshness doesn’t last.

I’m scared also because I have been putting the most of my emotions on the back burner. Not really dealing with them at all. Will that be bad for my BP? Am I soon to explode? I just don’t know if crying or getting angry will help me do anything. A release for me will probably have me crying for days..

I’m all cried out.