I’M IN A FUCKING SHUTDOWN and that’s okay

I’m feeling word empty at the moment.

There is nothing I truly want to write again. I’m becoming kind of ANTI-The world.
No tv.
No writing.
No spending money.
No hanging out.
No nothing.

I have been stilling quietly for a couple of mins a day. I want to not think about things that have to do with people, or bullshit that doesn’t matter.

Like jobs
Money
The future
Bills
Expectations

I am getting extremely high, but taking my meds and making to do lists daily. I am just trying to find my fucking way.

I’m tired of my mind and my surroundings control me. Controlling me should be me.

It’s Official: I’m crazy

So my friend really didn’t diss me. It was my feelings that ran away with the wind…

AGH!! I hate when I can’t stop my mind from going into anger mode. I hate also that I think about things too much and blow shit out of proportions. I could of easily ruined my  long friendship because of my stupid MIND!

i hate you mind. i hate you mind. i hate you mind. i hate you mind. i hate you mind. i hate you mind. i hate you mind. i hate you mind. i hate you mind.i hate you mind.i hate you mind.i hate you mind.i hate you mind.i hate you mind.i hate you mind.i hate you mind.i hate you mind.

What is wrong with me!!? Oh, right, I have bipolar disorder.

 

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