What’s your drug of choice?

Pills, Cannabis, TV?

What’s your choice of drug to help you through your bipolar mess?

I’m not going to lie. I USE cannabis. I remember a time when I would smoke and all the crazy emotions inside me would shut up. I would go into this weird zone where I would feel good and cloudy all at the same time.

Now. I USEA Cannabis but a used rug. It doesn’t do anything for me anymore. I have medication for my mind but why can’t I let this old friend go then?

I still love the way it gets me out of my mind, relaxes me, and gives me something to do but other than that it’s a stagnant bunch of crap.

What choices are you trying to get away from that popped up for you in the beginning of your journey?

Antidepressants for ALL!

People are so easy to share (with me, because my superpower is communication) that they were (KEYWORD!) on antidepressants but the got off of them.

I don’t know if I should complain that you told me and then quickly told me that you got off them OR be happy that you told me you were on antidepressants..

This all coming after I confessed that I’m feeling really depressed and that’s probably why I lost 30 pounds..

Does and has everyone taken antidepressants? And if so WHY ISN’T mental illnesses widely talked about and understand…ed?!

I’m not on antidepressants.

I should be.

I’m not on anything..(well)..but who am I to judge her anyway? Mental illness, whatever face and shape it takes, is real.

Maybe I’m just jealous she got OFF them when some people can never stop taking them, or can’t get them in he first place. ✌🏿


I am officially feeling better.

I feel happy and not depressed or angry.

BUT BUT BUT I want to make sure this isn’t my manic side and I’m really chemically changing mentally. I have another appointment this week to tell him how I’m doing on the medication. I don’t know what I will tell him other than the physical side.

but I want to tell you work is going well (it always does in the beginning), and I’m feeling good.

I hope you all are well. I have been thinking about my blog friends lately and just want to send love out to the Mental Health world!

Wishing you a better holiday than me!

There have been so many times when I sat down to write and I deleted everything and left. I don’t know what’s going on with me lately, but I have not wanted to do anything I use to do.

This doesn’t mean I am giving up on my blog, it just mean that I have to find something in my life that I simply love doing – other than writing.

I feel like I am lacking a lot and I’m trying to make up for it by doing different things. My mood is still killing most of what I am doing, but I am making simple changes to my life that hopefully will help my mental illness.

I hope everyone is okay this holiday season and I hope your not too down. Please take care of yourselves!

Talk About Your Medicines Month with The American Recall Center


Let’s talk about medicine. Medicine for mental illness sufferers is MUST-NEEDED, but so hard to stick with. If your anything like me you are trying everything not to be held down to medication, but unfortunately with my ailment medication will probably knock it right out the park..

So what’s my problem?

Let’s back up a little into the past and find out why I’m running like FLO-JO. My mother has a mental illness also, actually more than one, and she had to start taking a cocktail of medications (shaken, not stirred. I’m sorry, I had to)  just so she could function normally. That was scary to watch because my mother came from strong, independent woman to dependent helpless woman. Meds for me were the enemy instead of the answer. My mother is MUCH MUCH better and doesn’t really need the cocktail anymore, but I’m scared that I’m next.

In my life I have taken (in this order):





These medications have changed my face when it comes to my mental illness.  Paxil was the first of my four and definitely my yuckiest. It made me feel blah all the time. Also, my sex drive totally got into the RIGHT LANE and became non-existent.

Seroquel just made me go to sleep and not have much time for anger or depression…I was TOO TIRED to move! I love getting caught up on my sleep (My skin looked great because of the extra hours sleeping) but I also love to live my life!

Wellbutrin! THE BEST EVER for me! I felt so good, I was upbeat, I made schedules and STUCK TO THEM! I was happy and in a good mood every single second of the day. I didn’t feel depressed, heck, I didn’t even know what they was on this med. UNFORTUNATELY the best things for you are the worst in other ways. This medication made me have the worst headaches after a little while taken it, so I had to stop. BOOOOOOOOOOO to my head for having a mental illness and not liking good drugs!

Now, I am a Prozac girl. It helps me feel less depressed and clear headed. So why don’t I take it regularly?…because I’m stupid and can’t get my mother out of my head…

I went in such detail about my medications because I know there are people out there feeling the same as me. They don’t want to be dope up on anything, they want to live meds-free and just deal. My answer to that is UMMMM… do what you want, but just remember that there are things out there to back you up if you need them. Don’t take medication JUST BECAUSE. Research about the medications, get a doctor and talk to them, talk to someone who is taking them, troll the web about the medications and see what other say about it.


  • Medicines are NOT cures
  • Every medicine has its risks and benefits
  • It can take time to feel better

I can’t tell you how to live life, I can’t even follow my own advice, but I know for a fact that without medication my mother would not be here today. Medication will probably make a HUGE difference in my life and the lives of mental illness sufferers.

Taking it… now that’s a WHOLE another blog post.

Good luck to friends!

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Anderson takes part in an experiment to help understand how people live with mental illness

Anderson takes part in an experiment to help understand how people live with mental illness

So glad that people in the public are trying to help out mental illness patients, but I think we may need someone who has a little more IT factor for it to be listened to…

How about Oprah?
Lebron James?

Thanks Anderson for bringing more light on such a dark subject!

Left Brain vs. Right Brain: Let’s Get Ready to RUMMBBLLEE!

Are you left brained or right? Well if you don’t know find out HERE. For me, I use both sides of my brain equally. I googled left or right brained tests and every one I finished said that I use both sides equally, which surprised me because I KNOW I’m not left brained. I’m also not that right brained either…

The brain is a deep deep place. Enjoy the test, the photos, and YOUR BRAIN!!