I loved this blog. This blog was me. Now I don’t know who I am. My mental is bad and I’m just not the person I use to be.
I don’t know if this blog ever helped you but if it did I’m glad.
Right now I could use a little help…
Stay strong my friends
Ranting
Athletics and Mental Health
Athletes are people too.
They are extreme mega people who do extreme mega things.
It’s hard to get with it all the time and preform at your best. It takes skill for the mind and sometimes that skill isn’t there.
There is no mental health program for major athletes because they expect them to be ON all the time. To be STRONG all the time.
If the Nike slogan say to JUST DO IT, what do you think they have to do.
People need to understand that we are people first. Whether we run fast or hit a ball, people are people.
Take that break Simone!
So Simone sat out the Olympics because of mental health.
GO GIRL GO!!!!!!!
If your head isn’t there, you can do anything. This is a major step in the right direction for mental health awareness. This girl went out, noticed something was up, and made sure she was okay. Who can say they do that on a regular?
I hope this helps the world understand that mental health is an issue for us all, not just for the “crazies”. We all deal with it, whether we like it or not
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What’s your drug of choice?
Pills, Cannabis, TV?
What’s your choice of drug to help you through your bipolar mess?
I’m not going to lie. I USE cannabis. I remember a time when I would smoke and all the crazy emotions inside me would shut up. I would go into this weird zone where I would feel good and cloudy all at the same time.
Now. I USEA Cannabis but a used rug. It doesn’t do anything for me anymore. I have medication for my mind but why can’t I let this old friend go then?
I still love the way it gets me out of my mind, relaxes me, and gives me something to do but other than that it’s a stagnant bunch of crap.
What choices are you trying to get away from that popped up for you in the beginning of your journey?
What does your Bipolar feel like right now?
I’m running fast, you?
Have you taken a mental note on how you are feeling for real?
Are you angry? Sad? Jealous? Nervous? Why? For no reason? Yeah, I understand you.
This Bipolar thing is hard. Emotions pop up on you for nothing, making you feel shit, then spiraling your day into mess.
Advice?
Medicine m? A good doctor? Observation. I have NO IDEA! That is a journey for you friend but KNOW that whatever you are feeling right now will pass, like shit through the body. It will go and come like a river, just keep paddling bro.
I hope that helped.
Bipolar isnt the illness, people are..
I keep hearing “they are bipolar” or “if they get off their meds, because they are bipolar”.
Who says being bipolar is a PROBLEM. It’s an illness that can happen to anyone. It’s something millions of people deal with everyday.
To tell someone you have bipolar disorder is really hard and liberating. Once done, it can not be undone.
So why do people make bipolar patients feel like there is SOMETHING WRONG.
Shit…why did I feel like there was a time something was wrong?
That is because our world deems disorders as crazy. When you get a job, they want to know if you have a disorder so if you POP off, they a record of you being “crazy”
Doctors make notes just in case something happens they can go back and say “here in your notes…you were crazy”
Oh..what a world. What a word.
Ps. I’m back.
Gun Violence: The New Mental Illness 🤔
I recently got back into magazines and got a subscription to People.
Every week in People there is a real story about a real tragedy that always involves Mental Illness.
Instead of talking about Mental Illness and signs to help loved ones (so you dont tragically end of like that) they talk about why you wear orange…for Gun violence.
Gun violence? This man was going through severe depression and shoots himself and you blame the gun? You said before that your dad bought the gun he was okay. (or was he?) Something happened to make him not okay
It wasn’t the gun. Gun violence is horrible though but it is it just the problem.
I think if we focus more on the root of the tree, we could get to why the branches we acting crazy..
Don’t Look Back. You Should Never Look Back.
Fuck that title.
Today I’m doing some major reflecting.
I really don’t feel like paying a person to talk to them about my past and see what the issues are, so I guess I’d rather do it myself.
For free. Badly.
I’ve been thinking about the times in the past that I have been happy. The 90s were an easier and happier time for me. Meeting my husband and moving out of my Nana House was happy. When I was doing magazine stuff and going out and talking to people made me happy.
I’m trying to understand my horrible depressed moody mind so I don’t fall in the same old trips.
I’m tired of this
2:06am
What are YOOUU doing up?
Me? Once I wake up for my son, I’m up for 2 hours. My mind is running about everything that has ever happened to me.
😞
Although I’ve always been a night owl. Nighttime is peaceful and quiet, but my life and priorities have changed. I’m the same mentally illed lady just world shift.
Any else trying to hold on to bad habits but know your lifestyle has changed. Congrats! I’m you…only more depressed.
2:16a
Ugh
Today I am feeling really shitty because of some family issues I just found out.
I’m moody, a bitch, and tired all day long.
I think this is what you call normal for me now.
Brain foods: Salmon
I’m eating Salmon right now for breakfast and i love it on bagels and just on a fork..
Go eat some. If you don’t like fish or will die, don’t do it but now at least you have some brain knowledge for someone else. ✌🏿
Antidepressants for ALL!
People are so easy to share (with me, because my superpower is communication) that they were (KEYWORD!) on antidepressants but the got off of them.
I don’t know if I should complain that you told me and then quickly told me that you got off them OR be happy that you told me you were on antidepressants..
This all coming after I confessed that I’m feeling really depressed and that’s probably why I lost 30 pounds..
Does and has everyone taken antidepressants? And if so WHY ISN’T mental illnesses widely talked about and understand…ed?!
I’m not on antidepressants.
I should be.
I’m not on anything..(well)..but who am I to judge her anyway? Mental illness, whatever face and shape it takes, is real.
Maybe I’m just jealous she got OFF them when some people can never stop taking them, or can’t get them in he first place. ✌🏿
Oh geez, is that a rant?
I have tried to write a freakin blog post for about two days and I haven’t been able to.
I don’t want to keep writing about how much this sucks and I don’t want to start something and stop again. Mental illness is such a hard topic to blog about because when you are smack dab in the middle of it yourself, it gets lost.
I brought back my site address www.bipolarunemployedlost.com because I know people suffering in the now are still finding this site. Whether if it started about me, things have changed.
I again, I feel like shit. My mind is running. I got too much energy and give it away too quickly, leaving me with nothing. I feel hard and emotionless.
im everywhere but nothing is moving
Bipolar, Unemployed & Lost 