Trying to stay positive and inspired, especially now since I’m not on any meds(I know….I know…). Here is a graphic I have that I am pulling out again..
How about now…??
I am not happy because I’m not happy inside.
How do I become happy inside? SHIT! SHIT! shit.
My brain is always looking for the next problem that I will have to face.
I can never think of anything positive..
How do you think positive??
I know. I know.
but I got to get up..
What the crap is this?!
This is what I found at my local mall, in a retail store.
How rude! Is it cool to wear something that brings so much pain and death??
Next, they will be making hoodies that says ‘RAPED’
This is real life..
These are your friends..
You thought you knew them, but you don’t..
This is their struggle. its real. its secret…
It’s sad to think that even your own friends aren’t telling you the truth about themselves..
How they secretly struggle like you..
This week tell a friend about your silent struggle..
You never know…someone might be in the same boat, or in the same position, or hurting really bad…
Reach out and touch them…
Reach out and touch yourself. In a nasty way, it doesn’t matter, You deserve it
Now, I don’t really recommend you use this as a “OMG! I’M BIPOLAR! NOOO” kind of thing. You need to go to your doctor for that, but it doesn’t have classic symptoms of Bipolar that you can watch out for.
GO SEE YOUR DOCTOR! Really… it can save your life.
This is me, but backwards. At work, I’m vibrant, smiley, and fun. The lie.
At home, I’m nasty, unhappy, cold, and serious.
I know that isn’t a bipolar trait, but it is… 😦
Funny. I have always been in DRAMA…who knew the symbol for what I love, would be the symbol for what I have. Full-Circle.
Should I make goals when I know I have a hard time making them stick?
How does a Bipolar person get anything done?
For me? One crazy, forgetful, angry step at a time. I am trying to make long term goals for myself, so I’m not living my life without direction and meaning. I never had a goal or direction. I could never get my mind to stick on to one thing long enough to actually make goals that I could accomplish and achieve. This has always made me feel horrible, and inferior to others.
I’ve had so many ideas over the years that I should work for Apple, or MTV…hell NASA! If I had money for every idea that i thought of I would be a millionaire, but for people Iike me, it’s hard to stick the landing.
So, how do I Gabby Douglas? How do I run, jump, and land? The other night I talked to some really good friends of mine. They seems to have it all together from the outside, but I know inside they are going through a lot. They are strong people and I felt like they wouldn’t judge me if I told them about my disorder. They were super kind and awesome about it and they made me think about goals, and the reasonings of why I got to this place in my life.
They said to me:
1. That having no father figure in my life has caused me not to have a solid footing.
2. I need to write down goals, and stick to them.
I don’t know about the daddy part. I don’t feel like I have daddy issues (I will admit that I have SERIOUS mommy issues), but not having a plan to live by and strive for is something I can say that I am lacking. So, I have decided to work on these things called “goals”, and see where it takes me.
Here are my official write-them-down-long-term-goals (2013 – 2016)
. I have to lose 80 pounds
. I want to have moved from my current place of residence.
. I want to get out of debt, and be financially free/set
. Find a job
. Exercise 3 times a week
. Stop eating after 9pm
. Get back on MEDs
. Track how I spend money, so I don’t make the same mistakes again
There are more goals that I have, but before I write them down I want to make sure they aren’t random thinking goals, but solid real goals.
So, any advice on sticking the landing when it comes to goals, or am I a hopeless BP girl asking for the holy grail?