Antidepressants for ALL!

People are so easy to share (with me, because my superpower is communication) that they were (KEYWORD!) on antidepressants but the got off of them.

I don’t know if I should complain that you told me and then quickly told me that you got off them OR be happy that you told me you were on antidepressants..

This all coming after I confessed that I’m feeling really depressed and that’s probably why I lost 30 pounds..

Does and has everyone taken antidepressants? And if so WHY ISN’T mental illnesses widely talked about and understand…ed?!

I’m not on antidepressants.

I should be.

I’m not on anything..(well)..but who am I to judge her anyway? Mental illness, whatever face and shape it takes, is real.

Maybe I’m just jealous she got OFF them when some people can never stop taking them, or can’t get them in he first place. ✌🏿

Bipolar,Unemployed & Lost

what a blog.

what a cool tool for myself and people out there to read and relate. I still get emails asking me to help spread the word and bring people to resources and help and hope.


where did the time go?

I don’t want to let anyone down but would I be right to say I don’t have the time to continue this blog? Would I be wrong to say I can’t?


Talk About Your Medicines Month with The American Recall Center


Let’s talk about medicine. Medicine for mental illness sufferers is MUST-NEEDED, but so hard to stick with. If your anything like me you are trying everything not to be held down to medication, but unfortunately with my ailment medication will probably knock it right out the park..

So what’s my problem?

Let’s back up a little into the past and find out why I’m running like FLO-JO. My mother has a mental illness also, actually more than one, and she had to start taking a cocktail of medications (shaken, not stirred. I’m sorry, I had to)  just so she could function normally. That was scary to watch because my mother came from strong, independent woman to dependent helpless woman. Meds for me were the enemy instead of the answer. My mother is MUCH MUCH better and doesn’t really need the cocktail anymore, but I’m scared that I’m next.

In my life I have taken (in this order):





These medications have changed my face when it comes to my mental illness.  Paxil was the first of my four and definitely my yuckiest. It made me feel blah all the time. Also, my sex drive totally got into the RIGHT LANE and became non-existent.

Seroquel just made me go to sleep and not have much time for anger or depression…I was TOO TIRED to move! I love getting caught up on my sleep (My skin looked great because of the extra hours sleeping) but I also love to live my life!

Wellbutrin! THE BEST EVER for me! I felt so good, I was upbeat, I made schedules and STUCK TO THEM! I was happy and in a good mood every single second of the day. I didn’t feel depressed, heck, I didn’t even know what they was on this med. UNFORTUNATELY the best things for you are the worst in other ways. This medication made me have the worst headaches after a little while taken it, so I had to stop. BOOOOOOOOOOO to my head for having a mental illness and not liking good drugs!

Now, I am a Prozac girl. It helps me feel less depressed and clear headed. So why don’t I take it regularly?…because I’m stupid and can’t get my mother out of my head…

I went in such detail about my medications because I know there are people out there feeling the same as me. They don’t want to be dope up on anything, they want to live meds-free and just deal. My answer to that is UMMMM… do what you want, but just remember that there are things out there to back you up if you need them. Don’t take medication JUST BECAUSE. Research about the medications, get a doctor and talk to them, talk to someone who is taking them, troll the web about the medications and see what other say about it.


  • Medicines are NOT cures
  • Every medicine has its risks and benefits
  • It can take time to feel better

I can’t tell you how to live life, I can’t even follow my own advice, but I know for a fact that without medication my mother would not be here today. Medication will probably make a HUGE difference in my life and the lives of mental illness sufferers.

Taking it… now that’s a WHOLE another blog post.

Good luck to friends!

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Aaliyah – Try Again

I am TOTALLY feeling this way right now.

I have overcome a situation that I been dreading for a while. It failed, but I tried and presented it in a different way, and I got results. Quickly! I’m really glad that I didn’t stop planning and walk away. I know understands what this songs really means. This is what it must feel like for people who aren’t faking this, because ultimately, isn’t taking medicine faking?

another time maybe. enjoy.

Hello Prozac,..I mean, Fluoxetine

So I am on Prozac now. Actually I am on a generic med called Fluoxetine.

It is making me sleepy, and hungry, but not angry, depressed, or sad. I don’t know how much I like it yet. While I was on Wellbutrin I felt energized, fit, healthy, and on track. This makes me feel on track, but about 5pm I feel so sleepy and take naps. Then I am up until 2am.

Well I have only been on it for 5 days, so we will see how this goes…

Other than that, I am waiting to hear back from jobs, but I am thinking if they haven’t called me back yet, they probably won’t.


and I was so looking forward to work with retail customers again…


oh well, on to the next one…

Goodbye Wellbutrin

Well its SAYONARA to Wellbutrin.

It was an okay med, but it has to go! I have an appt today with my med doctor, and I’m going to try and switch up.

The good side that I like is:

  • I haven’t feel that bad in a long time (other than last night)
  • I haven’t been eating as much shitty foods
  • I have been on task and track with things I need to do throughout my day
  • It has helped me stop smoking and drinking because every time I did I felt like shit
  • It give me energy in the mornings

The bad side:

  • I get kind of bad a headaches every other day
  • I don’t feel sexual AT ALL.
  • I can not have an orgasm AT ALL.
  • Did I say it gives me shitty headaches..

I mean the good over weights the bad, but I don’t feel like having to take headache meds every freaking day. Plus, I want to feel like I’m not taking anything, and on this med, I feel like I am all the time.

Well.. goodbye Wellbutrin. You were great, but you were a headache (ha!, see what I did there. Did I tell you about the headaches…?)


After listening to your comments on the last post I’ve made…and feeling how I am feeling..

Meds sucks.

I feel super hype at night before bed. My heart is pounding, my mouth is dry and I’m always so thirsty! I feel uncontrollable happy, and my head is ringing with a slight headache ever night. The worst is the energy that I can’t seem to burn off.

The good side is I’ve really stopped smoking. I don’t have a craving for anything, and I THINK I have lost weight. I’m not eating as much anymore.

UGH! I want to stop taking it, but my doctor told me this medicine is one that you can not just stop taking, you have to slowly come down off of it.

Today though, you can be proud of me, well I’m PROUD OF MYSELF. I was feeling really depressed/angry today, and my husband was trying to cheer me up, but I was just snapping on him and being a bitch. I felt really down about a few other things and it built up. Well, he left the house to leave me alone, and I called him just before he left the parking space because I REFUSE TO SIT IN THE HOUSE BY MYSELF, AND BE DEPRESSED OR SAD ANYMORE! I REFUSE! I will not give up on myself, and give into my shitty feeling mode. So, I left the house, got into the car, and went out with him. I kind of a had a semi-breakdown in the car, but never mind that I GOT OUT and changed the way I was feeling. I had a really good night after all, and now know that it might not be ME that makes me feel depressed, but its ME that stays depressed…

Please, if your feeling depressed or sad, GET OUT, move around, go outside, and join life. You will see that even though you hate it, its better than sitting alone…dying.

Lesson learned. Now, if I can only do something quicker about these meds….


Welllll bu trin. Why did it take so long for us to be introduced?!!

I feel so good. I feel like nothing is wrong, was wrong, and will ever be wrong. I feel great every morning and every night, and it’s because of Wellbutrin! I can’t think of anything negative or bad. I want to run in a field of flowers and hug people.

Weird, right?

Weird that a week of taking meds, I feel good. A little too good.. When is the crash and burn? When does the bad feeling come back? Now, I am doing thing that I have been putting off for a long time, and finally getting back to me.

But.. is it the real me?