Hello..is it me your looking for??

Yes world. I am still here. Still kicking. Still depressed. Still pregnant. Still all of the above.

Difference is I’m mending better because I have a really good therapist that I like and I moving my job to night shifts.

This pregnancy has me down a lot maybe because of all the extra hormones I’m feeling but I’m just not that happy about it.

Nothing has changed and everything is still the same. I haven’t been writing because I just haven’t felt the need to write anything anymore. Also some jerk face book my URL so it really sucks to write something when your website has been stolen. 

I’m really trying to be more proficient in all areas of my life but I feel just the same. 

I move my job tonight shifts because I really started hating the customers that came into the job in the morning. I can’t handle mornings anyway so having this baby inside me, getting up early, having to deal with people in their stupid drinks, really set me off. I know it’s horrible because these people are just going about their day normally but for me it is such a  pain in the ass hole. 

Maybe one day I’ll be better at customer service, maybe not, but until then I have to slow down and figure out what the hell is going on with me for real. 

I hope you are doing well and no one is hurt themselves or made themselves feel down more than usual. I hope I can reconnect with the word press world and just become a better person because of it.

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4 thoughts on “Hello..is it me your looking for??

  1. At the time I got pregnant I was not yet diagnosed with BP, but looking back on the months before my pregnancy, it clear that I was. However, during my pregnancy I felt great! No mood swings! It was like the flood of pregnancy hormones temporarily rewired my brain. I was also fortunate that I did not suffer from PPD. However, by the time my daughter was 6 months old, my mood swings returned with a vengeance. This was back in 2010. I was finally diagnosed in 2013 and have been on meds ever since. It has not been perfect, but it’s been better.

Rant on, my friends!

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