I’m so ready for some change I can taste it. I can’t keep doing the same things and expect things to be different.
I can’t:
Smoke all day, everyday
Not exercise
Not have any goals
I got to get a fucking grip with reality. Before I blamed it on my mental illness, but now I’m starting to realize that it just is me! Me me me
Now that I know… Knowing is half the battle but let the battle begin because I’m going to have to fight to keep myself in check.
Change is hard to find.
Bipolar, Unemployed & Lost 
wow..i believe we are so hard on ourselves but seeing others accomplish so many things in one day always makes me feel like a loser when im just proud I was able to get off the couch and shower…I FEEL YOU…we struggle so much harder to do what seems so natural to others..im looking at my carpet as we speak and thinking I really should vacumn its been weeks but this latest episode with all new doses of meds have thrown me into a dark place…I did shower today and I try to be grateful for that..for now
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