SHIT!!!

I am stressing the mess out right now.

There are a million things running through my mind everyday since the middle of Oct. I have been taking my meds, mediation, doing things to get my mind off of it, but it always comes right back to: AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

I’m sorry if this is starting to sound so mundane and repetitive, but shit shit shit shit shit

How much of this is my mind and how much is this me? I know you have to be proactive in life to actually have a life but how can someone with a mental illness be proactive? Pushing them isn’t the way?..is it? How can you push yourself if yourself is in the way?

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4 thoughts on “SHIT!!!

  1. Take a deep breath. Give yourself a break – you’re going through hell right now. Vent as much as you want here – we don’t care! We care about YOU!

    It’s not “you”, it’s your brain, it’s the f’ing bipolar messing with you, it’s not your fault.

    You’re a good person – that shines through this blog.
    As far as being proactive goes, I need my meds before I can even fart – let alone do anything else.

    hang in there, dear one. You’ll get better advice from others, but know I’m thinking of you and sending you a big-ass hug.

      • I know it, honey. I’ve been in the evil hole too – I wish I could give you a big hug right now! It’s so messed up that you should have to suffer this way. 😦 I’m totally praying for you to feel better soon in my wackadoodle agnostic way!

        XO

Rant on, my friends!

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