I am stressing the mess out right now.
There are a million things running through my mind everyday since the middle of Oct. I have been taking my meds, mediation, doing things to get my mind off of it, but it always comes right back to: AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
I’m sorry if this is starting to sound so mundane and repetitive, but shit shit shit shit shit
How much of this is my mind and how much is this me? I know you have to be proactive in life to actually have a life but how can someone with a mental illness be proactive? Pushing them isn’t the way?..is it? How can you push yourself if yourself is in the way?
Bipolar, Unemployed & Lost 
“How can you push yourself if yourself is in the way.” I can totally relate to that, especially lately. It gets so hard sometimes. I hope you feel better soon. 🙂
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Take a deep breath. Give yourself a break – you’re going through hell right now. Vent as much as you want here – we don’t care! We care about YOU!
It’s not “you”, it’s your brain, it’s the f’ing bipolar messing with you, it’s not your fault.
You’re a good person – that shines through this blog.
As far as being proactive goes, I need my meds before I can even fart – let alone do anything else.
hang in there, dear one. You’ll get better advice from others, but know I’m thinking of you and sending you a big-ass hug.
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Thank dyane 😦 it seems like such a deep hole
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I know it, honey. I’ve been in the evil hole too – I wish I could give you a big hug right now! It’s so messed up that you should have to suffer this way. 😦 I’m totally praying for you to feel better soon in my wackadoodle agnostic way!
XO
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