Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde. At your service…

So I’m feeling really terrible. I’ve done something the wrong way and I’m going to pay consequences for…

I’ve forgot about my med appt today, and should of called them back on Fri, but I didn’t. So, I’m playing hooky from work because I wouldn’t be able to go if I did. I don’t want the people at my job to know about my appts or my condition, but yet I think I’m using it as crutch.

I’m also disappointed in my job. I have lost faith and willingness to want to continue up. Is that bad?? Why does this always happen to me? I just think I’m not the kind of person that works well, or works at all. My mind switches from YEAH I CAN DO THIS, to I don’t/can’t/why do this.

I have been really horrible lately. To my husband. My life. Myself….Well maybe not, I am keeping up with something important to me….

My health.