Bipolar, Employed, and Hating it

Jobs are for brains that can make plans and stick with them. Jobs are for people who can go with the flow, and not just be pretending to.

My new job is working in retail. I am a visual merchandising assistant. I make a little above minimum wage, but that’s not the problem..

..the problem is that I work with young, backstabbing, vain, horrible, non professional people. These are the kind of people that make cliques and make everyone else who isn’t in it feel like outsiders. They are really fake and mean to people whom they don’t deem fashionable enough.

The other day I got sent in the office for a talk because I had ask for my boss’s boss opinion on a project I was doing. She helped me and was really okay about it, but then turned around and told my boss that I didn’t know what I was doing, and that he must not be training me right! She got all of that from me asking her advice! My bosses told me to never talk to her again because she just acts like that about everything. Basically, she is out to get me. THEN they told me that I need to calm down because I am just an assistant and that my enthusiasm was too much!!

Too much?? Too much?? If they only knew how much I needed and wanted a job! How much effort it takes me to keep something because of my mental illness! It shocked me!

Now, I’m sitting in-between a rock and a hard place because I need and like what I do, but the people are not my cup of tea.

How can I overcome this??

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10 thoughts on “Bipolar, Employed, and Hating it

  1. Retail can be terrible or it can be great, it’s really dependent on the store & the people who staff it. Sometimes all you can do is keep your head down & keep working until you can find someplace that’s the right fit. I was at a small retail store that was great until mgmt changed, moved to a big one that became a problem, and have since moved to a different company that is as unproblematic as retail can get, though I still get stressed. Hell is other, uncooperative people. Good luck.

  2. Oh I feel your pain! 99% of my tolerance for any employment rests on the company I must keep within the company. Personality is everything, unless you are allowed to block yourself off somehow you must find a way of rationalising nasty types. I read a great book on dealing with difficult people, – title along those lines, go Amazon! There’s a few excellent Jedi mind tricks to limit the psychic vampire damage if you need to just knuckle down until something better pops up. What’s your dream job?

    • My dream job is to travel around the world doing something LOL.I have no clue what that something is… I’m good at a lot of things lol. Thanks for your words 🙂

  3. If you stick it out for a while and things don’t improve just start applying for jobs with the competition. A change is as good as a rest they say where I come from. What you’re describing does seem to be industry standard though. There are really unfortunate side effects to working 9-5. One of the main ones being exposure to the 80% of people who are just wasted air.

    Hope it gets better for you
    H&J

  4. If you stick it out for a while and things don’t improve just start applying for jobs with the competition. A change is as good as a rest they say where I come from. What you’re describing does seem to be industry standard though. There are really unfortunate side effects to working 9-5. One of the main ones being exposure to the 80% of people who are just wasted air.

    Hope it gets better for you
    H&J

  5. OY! Retail ppl can be SO catty! Especially the bosses clamoring to one up each other and make themselves look brilliant. There is a major pecking over… and its peck peck or be pecked! My advice would be to do your job as best as you can working with the cliques and try to stay as neutral as possible. One thing those kinds of ppl hate is a wolf among the chickens!

Rant on, my friends!

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