Happy ONE YEAR to Bipolar, Unemployed, & Lost!!!

Happy ONE YEAR to Bipolar, Unemployed, and Lost!

I can’t believe I’ve made it this far with my mental illness. I have learned so much from my fellow bloggers about what I have, what others experience, and how this illness and others have touched so many lives around the world.

I really can’t believe I’ve made it this long.

To commemorate this, I want to paste my FIRST EVER BLOG ENTRY, just to show you how far I’ve come. Its so awesome to have so many bloggers that want to read this blog and connect with me.

To you, Thank you. Thank you for being there when no one else was. Thank you for connecting with me. Thank you for your advice. I hope that this next year, together, we can help our fellow soldiers come down off the ledge, and into our arms (isn’t that romantic…)

Here’s to US. Here’s to ME.

“This is uncomfortable. To blog about a my life.

Wait, let me not say that. I’ve actually held a blog for years on another site. I use to love to blog. Back then, it wasn’t called “blogging”, it was a journal. A journal where I wrote about stupid things, funny things, boys, drinking, dancing, about a life that seems so far away. A life I don’t remember living.

What’s different now?

Now, I have been diagnosed with Bipolar, i’m fatter, engaged, and unemployed. I guess this time around I’m looking to reflect, and to understand how I got here. Most people would look at my life and want it. They would want the connection I feel with my fiance, my endless amount of electronics, my house, my friends…but for me, it’s nothing. Have I always been this way. Not seeing what good is around me?

Yes.

The question I want to ask is why? Why am I not happy with what I have? What I have achieved..

I guess this first entry is to remind myself where I am starting, and how low I feel. I want to connect with people just like me. I want to help people who aren’t happy.

Here’s to another journal. Here’s to a new beginning and a fresh start”