I am so angry right now, at everyone and everything.
Before, when I got angry I’d just spill it all out and say things I didn’t mean, and do things I really didn’t want to do. I had no control. Now, my angry seems almost serial killer like.
No, I’m not going to kill, but I just feel empty. I feel like an empty angry shell. I don’t really want to be angry, but I’m always playing the bigger person. I always play the its okay role, and then two seconds I’m back to the outgoing-nothing-is-wrong girl. This time, my angry is a slow toxic gas that waits to fill up the room until it kills you.
I haven’t said much to my husband or friends or myself in a couple of days. I haven’t really had any motivation to do anything other than eat, shit, sleep.
What am I to do about this? How do o release it? Exercise? Mediation? Food? I don’t want to do any of those, and there is no heat in my house, so moving around is a hell no.
I am one tough cookie to crack. I know more about myself than a fucking stranger. What is really bothering me!?
Bipolar, Unemployed & Lost 
Favorite music? Favorite comedy? When I get really angsty I recluse with my iPod and some chocolate.
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You have to find somewhere to vent, and allow yourself to do something nice for yourself. I really can’t offer any advice. I have never been in your position. But I support you here, where you might vent your anger. You either give up or keep going. I think you’re the keep going type.
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Well…While I am an adult of way long ago. When I get angry I play a video game. Somehow shooting something helps me. Instead of choking someone, I take it out on virtual things. Just food for thought
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I never know what to do, outside of putting my head down and trying to not break things. >< Hope it passes swiftly. ❤
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Reblogged this on Random Fool in Thought and commented:
I feel this too…like, all the time now.
It consumes everything I do. Something that would have made me smile, laugh, or cry….no more.
Now, all I feel is…
rage.
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Depression is anger turned inward. I don’t know what it is that is making you angry, but depression will follow if you don’t work through it toward a positive ends. Don’t ring a bell that can’t be un-rung, but list what constructive things you can do and the likely consequences.
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Take good care of yourself, my friend!
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