I feel like the reason I am so anti about working is my mind.
I dread going to work. Every day. Every time i think about going to do work for someone or something other than myself. I get angry, and don’t want to do it.
I really think this is a bipolar trait.
Shit, it doesn’t matter if its the best job on earth, im going to dread going to it, and spend my precious 6 to 8 hours.
Is this normal for you too? I don’t want to have these feelings anymore.
((side note: as I am typing this, my job called me in early, and I said yes. ))
Does this mean I’m a really lazy person, or that I don’t like to do the things I don’t like to do.
I wish I was born rich or royal.. With a normal brain.
Bipolar, Unemployed & Lost 
I think it is difficult to enjoy work because it takes so much energy to put on the mask and pretend you are okay at work, when all you want is to hide in bed and be depressed.
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your so right. it takes so much to front 4 or 5 times a week, for 6-8 hours. shit, mosy actors dont even act that much professionialy. ugh!
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I hate working. I quit my last job due to my last episode. It was too much for me to handle. Now, I’m working a job, and I like it until lunch time, and then I’m ready to go home. I don’t like to work anymore. And it’s a real pain.
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I sooo feel you. It takes a lot out of me to just think about going…ugh!
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I am the same way, and I know it’s not being lazy; I have very good work ethic. I’m not working now because I have two little ones and am going to school full time. But my last job, I loved. I even miss it. But everyday that I had to work, I felt dread. I always felt anxious on my way to work, to the point of feeling sick, but once I got there and started working I was fine. I have tried to find work since then, and have always felt way too anxious and have nearly had panic attacks on the first day. This has happened three times, and every time I’ve called them and quit the next day.
Bipolar is just a big bag of fun.
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I used to get a lot of satisfaction from work, but after my last episode I got a lot of responsibility taken away from me and now I count every painful moment i am there. it really is a living hell sometimes. Though sometimes the time passes quite quickly.
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I think it may be fair to call it a ‘bipolar trait’, although I imagine its more common than you might think. Certainly the bipolar are likely to be more sensitive/responsive to it.
For my part, I like the little victories of everyday work. Always accomplishing something, no matter how minor. What makes me dread work is the surrender of time and having to give ground.
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