I am my MOST anger-est!! (THAT’S A WORD NOW!)
I have noticed that right when I get home, and right before bed, is when I pick fights, get mad for no reason, am restless, and rude. I don’t know why, but my brain clicks into I-HATE-YOU-DON’T-TOUCH-TALK-TO-ME mode. I feel liek a shit when I lash out at my husband.
EXAMPLE TIME!: Last night, we watched ‘This is the End’. A really funny movie! Well I was feeling great until I hit the bed, and he tried to cuddle with me. I instantly got mad for no reason. So, I told him that today, at the strike of midnight, that it was 5 day of NO SMOKING! He didn’t give me a answer I liked, and I blew up. I told him that he never supported what I was trying to do, and that I always have to support myself (which is kind of true…), but I made such a big deal about it. 5 days is a accomplish for ME, not him.
UGH!, I don’t know why I feel so ANGRY at these times. I even sometimes feel angry upon waking up, for no reason. I blow up at my cat because he is scratching himself. SCRATCHING! What is going on? Is this BIPOLAR? or do I have an ANGER issue…still…underneath it all.
Anger is my middle FUCKING name!